Seasons of Soul-Self

 

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Seasons of Soul-Self

A past season passes slowly with
fear-tears of abandonment’s shadow.
DON’T LET OTHERS KNOW THE SECRET!
Tears of deep loss hide within my soul, 
 
 
…abandoned, cold winter soul. 
 
 
Called back to that time of fearfulness,
dread, anxiety, my shadow-soul-memories.
Now!Breathing heavily, rapidly, catching,
DON’T LET HIM HURT ME AGAIN! STOP! 
 
 
…abuse, my loss in spring’s season. 
 
 
Season remembrance within me,
memories long passed but owning
my present in shadow-bound fear
deep within my soul-self season. 
 
 
.…autumn of abandoned soul-self.   
 
 
Tears fall remembering my abuse during
those interminable seasons long ago of
summer sun’s heat, autumn’s leaves falling,
winter’s cold snow, and spring’s flowers,
my beginning abuse. soul-self abandoned,  
 
 
…memories of lost innocence during
my soul-self seasons of my abuse.

 
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Fear or Faith

DAY FIVE

1 John 5:4 New King James Version (NKJV)

For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our[a] faith.

Psalm 37:8 New King James Version (NKJV)

Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret—it only causes harm.

Mark 4:40 New King James Version (NKJV)

40 But He said to them, “Why are you so fearful? How is it that you have no faith?”

My Thoughts and Discussion

As I read the Devotional today and read the scriptures in the Bible, I was a little perplexed. The devotions spoke of FEAR being a prison and that the only escape was through the Lord and FAITH. Faith was the key that would unlock the door.

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