Seasons of Soul-Self



Seasons of Soul-Self

A past season passes slowly with
fear-tears of abandonment’s shadow.
Tears of deep loss hide within my soul, 
…abandoned, cold winter soul. 
Called back to that time of fearfulness,
dread, anxiety, my shadow-soul-memories.
Now!Breathing heavily, rapidly, catching,
…abuse, my loss in spring’s season. 
Season remembrance within me,
memories long passed but owning
my present in shadow-bound fear
deep within my soul-self season. 
.…autumn of abandoned soul-self.   
Tears fall remembering my abuse during
those interminable seasons long ago of
summer sun’s heat, autumn’s leaves falling,
winter’s cold snow, and spring’s flowers,
my beginning abuse. soul-self abandoned,  
…memories of lost innocence during
my soul-self seasons of my abuse.

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Fear or Faith


1 John 5:4 New King James Version (NKJV)

For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our[a] faith.

Psalm 37:8 New King James Version (NKJV)

Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret—it only causes harm.

Mark 4:40 New King James Version (NKJV)

40 But He said to them, “Why are you so fearful? How is it that you have no faith?”

My Thoughts and Discussion

As I read the Devotional today and read the scriptures in the Bible, I was a little perplexed. The devotions spoke of FEAR being a prison and that the only escape was through the Lord and FAITH. Faith was the key that would unlock the door.

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