Who I Truly Am: Part 2
For Part 2, I start with a quick review of the definitions for BED (binge eating disorder) COE (compulsive overeating). I have BED, binge eating disorder.
Binge eating disorder (BED) is characterized by binge eating without subsequent purging episodes. The disorder was first described in 1959…Binge eating is one of the most prevalent eating disorders among adults.
Wikipedia defines Compulsive Eating Disorder or COE as similar to BED and defined as:
A food addiction or eating addiction is a behavioral addiction that is characterized by the compulsive consumption of palatable(e.g., high fat and high sugar) foods – the types of food which markedly activate the reward system in humans and other animals – despite adverse consequences
Behavior Symptoms can include:
- Evidence of binge eating or disappearance of large amounts of food in short periods of time. Lots of empty food wrappers or containers indicating consumption of large amounts of food.
- Secretive food behaviors, including eating alone.
- Change in normal eating patterns, including eating throughout the day with no planned mealtimes; skipping meals or taking small portions of food at regular meals; engaging in fasting or repetitive dieting; and developing food rituals such as eating only certain foods, etc.
- Can involve extreme restriction and rigidity with food that includes dieting and/or fasting.
- Periods of uncontrolled, impulsive, or continuous eating beyond the point of feeling uncomfortably full.
- Experiencing feelings of anger, anxiety, worthlessness, or shame preceding binges. Initiating the binge is a means of relieving tension or numbing negative feelings.
- Co-occurring depression may be present. May also experience social isolation, moodiness, and irritability.
- Feeling disgusted about their body size. May have been teased about their body while growing up.
- Avoiding conflict; trying to “keep the peace.”
- Certain thought patterns and personality types are associated with binge eating disorder such as “all or nothing” thinking, need for control, difficulty expressing feelings and needs, perfectionist, and to please others.6 Steps To Your Inner Soul
I am going through Outpatient Treatment working with a psychiatrist that manages my medication (Vyvance) and a counselor for therapy treatment. I have only started treatment within the last month so it is too soon to tell you whether it is successful. What I can tell you is that the medication, Vyvance, truly takes your desire to binge away and decreases your appetite significantly.
What I am working on in counseling is a journey of know myself, my inner soul self. There are SIX STEPS to my journey that will be worked on when I see my counselor and by working through a Workbook named, The Binge Eating and Compulsive Overeating Workbook by Carolyn Coker Ross, MD, MPH.
The Six Steps include:
- Looking inside myself asking questions such as how I see life; how I see the world; Who am I?; Why am I the way I am?
- Using some self-analysis with some help from my counselor getting deep into my inner self and what matters to me?; what frustrates me?; what makes me angry?; each requiring honesty.
- Looking at my past from childhood moving forward making a list of events that shaped my ideas and belief system for good or bad.
- Focus and dedication are required to discover who I am and enabled by self-reflection, journaling, workbook exercises.
- Being able to list things that motivate and excite me in my life allowing me to know what motivates me emotionally.
- Support system of family and friends (if possible) and my therapist. Also for me is my belief in God as a support for me.
So wish me luck on my journey as I work to overcome BED and learn who I really am along the way.