I’m frozen like a statue since the evil wizard, Gazzardoff, caught me outside his castle. I wasn’t to venture out because he feared I would run away. Well, I’ll tell you that being locked up with Gazzardoff is punishment enough. He’s fat, ugly, and his breath smells. Who’d want to live with him?
If I could have found the gates, I’d have flown like an eagle to get away. Now, I am perpetually frozen unless he reverses the spell. What am I to do?
“Oh Gazzardoff, my darling wizard. Come and visit me. I’m lonely out here.”
Gazzardoff on his rounds approached cautiously. “What do you want?” he asked.
“Oh dear wizard you are smart, strong, and handsome. Let me down so I can show you my affections.”
Gazzardoff lifted his wand performing a short incantation releasing the angel from being a statue.
“Come Gazzardoff, take me to your warm castle and we will spend time together.” she said while thinking, “I’m out of here the first chance I get, you idiot.”
In the past, I feared change. As a child in an abusive home, the rules changed every day. I tried to figure out the rules each morning when I woke but never succeeded at it. The only consistency was at school. There the rules were clear and you could always predict the outcome of a behavior.
As an adult, I still feared change. Then I found Al-anon, a group for families of alcoholics. My husband at the time was alcoholic. At Al-anon, I again found consistent rules listed as suggestions and I found the Serenity Prayer. This prayer was easy to memorize, but a little harder to put into action. It was broken down into 3 parts.
The 1st part was “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change.” Things I couldn’t change were other people, places, and things. I could not change my alcoholic husband. I could not change my home at the time. I could not change how my children reacted to the chaos in our home.
The second part was easier and said, “courage to change the things I can,” The obvious change was to change myself, but did I have the courage? I didn’t have much choice in the situation. I had to change to decrease the chaos, or at least my part in it.
The 3rd part took some time and was “wisdom to know the difference.” At first the group was my Higher Power and I learned all I could from other members of Al-anon. Slowly with knowledge of the program and choosing my sponsor, I found my Higher Power to be God and prayed daily for wisdom from Him.
Yes, change is scary, bit there is a saying in Al-anon that goes: “If you always do what you always did, you will always get what you already have.” So change isn’t so bad after all.