Child Soul

Prompt 63 – Set The Challenge Sunday #9 

 Today, our prompt is a word: MARTYR

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Child Soul


Do I martyr myself before the universe
when I bare the pain of my child soul?

Or am I rightly so, a martyr that purges
my demons by writing prose or poetry?

To write cathartic words of gnawing pain
resulting from my agonizing child life…

…puts to death the abuser’s lifeline and
purges my child soul’s heart memories.

As a child filled with empty nonexistence
finding solace in imaginary love and care…

so was the annihilation of my child’s inner
beingness, replaced by vacancy within me…

I sought living beings to protect and care by
becoming a “Pied Piper” of stray animals.

Within the confines of my soul’s imagination
I became a keeper, caregiver, lover of the lost.

Life repeats itself and my adult soulness
recreates images with lost soul beings.

Coming full circle from lost child soul to
lover of the various soul’s of lost identity…

I arrive at my inner soul’s destination with
post-martyrdom purpose and calling for life.

Poem about abused childhood-prompt “martyr”

Attitude of Gratitude

 Today, I share a post that I wrote early this morning on my other blog, Susan’s Personal Blog, 30 Day Attitude of Gratitude Day 10. I felt this was something you might be interested in also. As social media and the internet run rampant in our lives, we chance internet or social media addiction. Our  parents and grandparents remember a time before the internet and can attest to how many hours are spent on our iPhones, iPads, computers and such. Well, yesterday I experience an outage of my cable and lost TV and the internet until late at night. In this post, I write about this. Enjoy.
Susan…

 

 

30 Day Attitude of Gratitude Challenge Day 10

First…. 

  Tonight’s quote was found on another Google search. One source said it was from Gurbaksh Chahal, an entrepreneur businessman, and writer but many more sources listed the quote as an “unknown author.” Either way, the quote spoke to me about events that I experienced today. The quote and the events of today taught me an important life lesson.

The Quote…

The quote I chose this evening is:

“It doesn’t matter if the glass is half empty or half full. Be grateful you have a glass…Be grateful that you have a glass, and there is something in it… ” Author Unknown.

Lessons…

So, in my introduction, I alluded to something that happened to me today that prompted me to choose tonight’s quote, “It doesn’t matter if the glass is half empty or half full…Be grateful that you have a glass, and there is something in it…” Today, again, we lost internet and cable service in the Nashville area from our provider, Xfinity. I was on the internet, checking my mail in one of my two accounts (personal and business) when the internet service stopped. It was 9:30 am and my first cup of coffee was still warm.

My first thought was to reset the router because our service goes out often in middle Tennessee. I reset the router and waited the 5 minutes it takes to reboot and still, no internet. I repeated this action three times (slow learner) with the same results. My daughter called her husband (he’s more tech savvy) and asked him to reset it from his phone. Still, no internet. Soon we were texted that he had checked with Xfinity and service would be interrupted until later in the afternoon. In fact, later in the day the time for the return of service was revised to 11:00 pm which is when service returned.

I set about my day, letting go of my need for the internet reconnection and realized how dependent I had become on internet service. I could not check my mail, write blogs, attend Blog Hop parties, see how much money was in my bank account, post to social media sites, etc. You get the gist. That was me looking at the negative effects of loss of service. I took a deep breath or two, okay, maybe three or four so that I wouldn’t panic or lose it. After that, I looked at what I could do with my free time. I came up with a list:

  1. Finished my coffee while it was still warm without the internet distractions.
  2. Spent more time with my daughter and her in-laws who were visiting from Florida.
  3. Had more time to play with my grandchildren without being interrupted.
  4. Sat outside longer, enjoying the cool temperature of the morning.
  5. Took a nap which I usually don’t have time for.
  6. Spent some time reading a book on my Kindle that I had previously downloaded to the device.
  7. Went to dinner (most often I stay home) with my family and had a great time.

All of this I did with gratitude for each activity that I usually take for granted without even thinking about it. I also appreciated my internet access when it returned and was thankful for something I had again taken for granted. 

On to the quote. It has two parts. The first part is, “It doesn’t matter if the glass is half empty or half full…” The writer stated that the issue is not about the amount in the glass whether full or empty or half full or half empty. With that stated so clearly, I asked myself, “What, then, is the issue?” Concern for the quantity of liquid in the glass is just used as a learning point,  an example, a metaphor for life. Also, what is in the glass is of no concern since it is not listed. Some play on words and the quote have suggested wine, vodka, alcohol as what was in the glass. Again, what is in the glass isn’t important. That is when I changed my focus to the second part of the quote.

The second part of the quote is, “Be grateful that you have a glass, and there is something in it…” Now, I was getting close to answering my question of, “What, then, is the issue?” There is that word again, gratitude. “Be grateful” is the issue and to drive it on home, the sentence finishes after the comma with “and there is something in it. Oh, my feeble brain does the Aha Moment, light bulb turning on. I am to be grateful to have a glass and something in it at all. WOW! I needn’t worry myself about the minor things but focus on the major things. 

I can now say in all honesty that the loss of internet service today was a blessing in disguise. I won’t fret anymore about internet service. I live life in the moment. What about you?

Gratitude List… 

  1. The loss of internet service for the day.
  2. The ability to understand the written word in the quote above.
  3. All the fun things that I did get to do today.
  4. My family and time with them.
  5. My Higher Power, whom I call God, for his wisdom and timing.

I hope you enjoyed tonight’s quote, my Aha moment, and my gratitude list. See you tomorrow.

Good night,

Susan…

 

30 Day Attitude of Gratitude Challenge Day 10

First…. 

 Tonight’s quote was found on another Google search. One source said it was from Gurbaksh Chahal, an entrepreneur businessman, and writer but many more sources listed the quote as an “unknown author.” Either way, the quote spoke to me about events that I experienced today. The quote and the events of today taught me an important life lesson.

The Quote…

The quote I chose this evening is:

“It doesn’t matter if the glass is half empty or half full. Be grateful you have a glass…Be grateful that you have a glass, and there is something in it… ” Author Unknown.

Lessons…

So, in my introduction, I alluded to something that happened to me today that prompted me to choose tonight’s quote, “It doesn’t matter if the glass is half empty or half full…Be grateful that you have a glass, and there is something in it…” Today, again, we lost internet and cable service in the Nashville area from our provider, Xfinity. I was on the internet, checking my mail in one of my two accounts (personal and business) when the internet service stopped. It was 9:30 am and my first cup of coffee was still warm.

My first thought was to reset the router because our service goes out often in middle Tennessee. I reset the router and waited the 5 minutes it takes to reboot and still, no internet. I repeated this action three times (slow learner) with the same results. My daughter called her husband (he’s more tech savvy) and asked him to reset it from his phone. Still, no internet. Soon we were texted that he had checked with Xfinity and service would be interrupted until later in the afternoon. In fact, later in the day the time for the return of service was revised to 11:00 pm which is when service returned.

I set about my day, letting go of my need for the internet reconnection and realized how dependent I had become on internet service. I could not check my mail, write blogs, attend Blog Hop parties, see how much money was in my bank account, post to social media sites, etc. You get the gist. That was me looking at the negative effects of loss of service. I took a deep breath or two, okay, maybe three or four so that I wouldn’t panic or lose it. After that, I looked at what I could do with my free time. I came up with a list:

  1. Finished my coffee while it was still warm without the internet distractions.
  2. Spent more time with my daughter and her in-laws who were visiting from Florida.
  3. Had more time to play with my grandchildren without being interrupted.
  4. Sat outside longer, enjoying the cool temperature of the morning.
  5. Took a nap which I usually don’t have time for.
  6. Spent some time reading a book on my Kindle that I had previously downloaded to the device.
  7. Went to dinner (most often I stay home) with my family and had a great time.

All of this I did with gratitude for each activity that I usually take for granted without even thinking about it. I also appreciated my internet access when it returned and was thankful for something I had again taken for granted. 

On to the quote. It has two parts. The first part is, “It doesn’t matter if the glass is half empty or half full…” The writer stated that the issue is not about the amount in the glass whether full or empty or half full or half empty. With that stated so clearly, I asked myself, “What, then, is the issue?” Concern for the quantity of liquid in the glass is just used as a learning point,  an example, a metaphor for life. Also, what is in the glass is of no concern since it is not listed. Some play on words and the quote have suggested wine, vodka, alcohol as what was in the glass. Again, what is in the glass isn’t important. That is when I changed my focus to the second part of the quote.

The second part of the quote is, “Be grateful that you have a glass, and there is something in it…” Now, I was getting close to answering my question of, “What, then, is the issue?” There is that word again, gratitude. “Be grateful” is the issue and to drive it on home, the sentence finishes after the comma with “and there is something in it. Oh, my feeble brain does the Aha Moment, light bulb turning on. I am to be grateful to have a glass and something in it at all. WOW! I needn’t worry myself about the minor things but focus on the major things. 

I can now say in all honesty that the loss of internet service today was a blessing in disguise. I won’t fret anymore about internet service. I live life in the moment. What about you?

Gratitude List… 

  1. The loss of internet service for the day.
  2. The ability to understand the written word in the quote above.
  3. All the fun things that I did get to do today.
  4. My family and time with them.
  5. My Higher Power, whom I call God, for his wisdom and timing.

I hope you enjoyed tonight’s quote, my Aha moment, and my gratitude list. See you tomorrow.

Good night,

Susan…